He Wants to Live…

He wants to live
right now!
The high school student sits sighing at the screen delirious from deprivation of sleep sleep sleep desperate for sleep he feels the caffeine the sugar gnawing away at his spongy brain struggling to stay awake to study for the science exam shiny iPad glow but not quite like the stars he would rather see the moon the sky the trees fall asleep under the blanket of darkness late at night he stays up cramming his eye bags burrowing into his cheeks I can endure hell a little longer until lunch tomorrow then I can live
right now!
He sighs of relief feels free failure is a possibility but who gives an F I finished now for the next class new assignment new exam new project next class new new new next he sets into speed of the week but he would rather run on the sand the wind the endless sky the tides swallowing his worries why is the week only halfway done drowning in his work just a couple more days until Friday then I can live
right now!
He goes out gets wasted on the weekend after waiting a week returns to drag himself on the endless road running running low on energy enthusiasm for life like a machine making mom happy good grades good reputation all good I guess so much due so much he would rather do so screwed he can’t screw around for the next few months not long until summer then I can live
right now!
He feels the sun makes new friends new lovers at music festivals now a freshman in college parties sports enjoying beers in between boring classes Bachelor’s in business because big bucks he would rather find philosophy but just wait until my first job then I can live
right now!
He makes mountains of money stability for his family but he would rather take them to climb the chill the clouds counting down years until retirement then I can live
right now!
He waits waits waits for a
right now without realizing it’s passing:
the right now.

Valerie Kau ’16

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